Friday, December 29, 2006
everyone has the same amt of things to do?why am i feeling so stress?
i feel like everything is thrown at me.. or even oni at a certain of us.
my hw. my ca. my dance. my ppt. my tuition hws. our soveniors.
i wan the least thing. just at least cooperate with me during dance. i knw u all are tired tt i asked for dance practice. but pls. understand me too. i had to finish the dance asap. the dealines are drawing near. and pls don just depend on me to do the dance steps. i have to finish everything in 4 days. u are all stessed.. so do i... all i need is just cooperation.. just cooperate with me... tts the least i asked for.. u all can choose not to come i knw.. but everytime i had to spend some more time to teach someone who hasnt come. come up with new steps. i knw i have no rights to complain but pls. pls pls just cooperate..
everything is coming at once.. me and dg cant take it. she said she feel like crying and splitting. i told her. i cried till my tears dried up.. i felt stressed loong ago. i cant finish the dance. i cant finish the ca. i cant finish hw. i cant finish ppt. i cant finish my tuition hws. i cant finish our soveniers. i sleept at nearly 12 - 1 everynight. wakes up 6 - 7 .. just to finish everything. sooner or later.. i realli cant take it. and i am damn falling sick. we made soveniors todae. all of them. we still din manage to finish. u knw how stressed we felt. we oni have 5 ppl. which is 10 hands. haslinda left early. which is 4 ppl left. equal to 8 hands. to finish up all of them. we cant manage. the flour is taking us very long. ee suan had cramps. everyone was tired. no one dared to take a rest. afraid that we cant finish. i knw everyone parents don allow. our parents are also scolding us also. my mum gave up on me on asking me not going to sch. she sae i will still go. she scolded me for slpin so late. but i got no other choice. i had to finish everything. now soverniers not finish. no more time. dg is doing it. haslinda is doing it. imagine how stress are they. they have everything just as us. i beg, just at least cooperate. these is the least we asked for. i knw all of ur parents don allow.. but.. haiz. is okay. forget it.
if things cant get beta. i will give up on dance.
i got no other choice. i will try till the very last min.
if everything gets no improvement, i will give up on it.
i am tired. very very tired. i wana slp.. as in realli wana slp.
i had less than 8 hrs of slp everydae.
since i am always hated. i am always disliked.
i think u all would feel the same after reading this.
i don care anymore.. u all can hate me. dislike me all u all wan.
i am used to it. is just like another routine. i am used. really used.
just hate and dislike me all u all like..