Friday, December 22, 2006
i feelin very sad now. dunno why. oni i knw. just tt i don wan sae. listening one of those songs tt will always make me cry. and remember those times where i was truly hurt..i am still guilty. i dunno. it just keeps remindin me tt i hurt her. i feel so shittfied. i dunno. i just feel like killin myself larh. yesterdae cried too much. my eyes still swollen. then very sleepy. was half awake todae. walk ard like zombie cause i got not enough slp( but i slept 10 hrs) .. maybe is i cried. yesterdae everyone was in a moody mode. no one was able to talk. as in no mood larh. shah was cryin, dg was crying. practically no one got mood. was crying when walkin. then ppl just stare at me. mum din found out tt i cried. i waited a while for my red eyes to be not so red then went home. was hidin in the toilet when shah they all talk. rt was with me. then was crying like shit when jean came in. i knew she got a shock. then she ask me if i was okay then she left me alone. when they came back and told me what happen. i cried more. i remember the feeling i had.
okay. shall calm myself a little first..
finee. i cant continue. shall continue another dae.