Friday, December 29, 2006
no one has ever know i felt. no one ever understands. and now. i knew abt something. i knew it long ago i am right not to trust. i am hurt again.. i realli dunno what to sae. i am serious really very upset now.. twice. twice. y must u do it? i was realli right that i cant trust.. i won trust anymore.. after the few days, i told myself to trust and i tried. and now. b4 i can even trust. i knew abt something else. if whatever i do seems not right then i realli dunno how to do. i am seriously tired. y cant someone just understands?? u knw i found someone whom i can trust. but i cant sae everything to tt person. everything is kept within me again. i realized that no one other than me can understands. i am no longer going to trust. i don wan. i am sick and tried. and injured. very very hurt. i wan to tell. u knw how i feel like tellin tt person. pouring everything to tt person. everyone told me that they are there for me. can tell them. but this matter is not getting any beta. is worst. and worst. i am realli hurt. i don wana talk anymore. i realli dunno what to sae. everything i sae is not right. everything i do is not right. u knw how tired i felt? i changed because of you. i changed because of her. i changed because of her. everyone i see. i change. the masks just get thicker. till i forget myself. i feel like slappping myself. y must i sae or do something to make ppl unhappy with me? u knw i am sick of life. i tried and tried. till i realli give up. i tried. and i am being hurt. i tried and hurt. i am bleeding. severely bleeding.. i don wan try anymore. everyone can choose to hate me. everyone can choose to dislike me. everyone can choose to leave me alone. i realli got no more comments..and i don wan to have one..i believed u.
u were one of the few i still believed.
but why must u do it?
i am sorry. i shouldnt have done anything to u.
but i realli don knw what i do..
but i realli don wana trust anymore.