Wednesday, November 07, 2007
just realised, we had already stepped up for half a yr...in another half a yr, we are stepping down.
i just realise, days pass so fast..
and i am already turning 16 next year..
these few days, i think life is just full of chances and opportunities.
and i also learnt, not to regret what had already happened.
maybe at that instinct, i will regret. but brood over it for a few days wld be enough.
and we shld carry on...
because if we miss the opportunity this time, there may be a bigger opportunity next time yea?
manage to catch up with carissa today.
and i realise how much i miss that pig. ( hahaha!)
and i saw xiangliang and sumaiya today.
hehe! that shows how long i never been to school already.
sumaiya screamed when she saw me, am i that scary? lol!
and i went to 3s1. the class i spent my 1 year.
and i realise, how much i miss it.
with the memories of the carissa, alcina and i gossiping at a corner.
is just memorable.
and xiangliang! i saw her today like finally!
miss her like hell too!
class gathering? i think i will attend already. hahaha.
and today cadets days are especially memorable.
with me sitting in the mini forum, waiting for the others who are always late.
and the very dark mini forum where i would usually don dare to enter early in the morn.
with the help of my squadmates, how we manage to endure all the punishments given by snrs.
we would cry, we would encourage one another, and even dont allow 1 squadmate to pump or punish with us as long as she is sick or injured.
but that squadmate wld always tell nco, i am okay ma'am, i am really okay.
because we all knw, the feeling to watch the rest of ur squadmate pump is just unbearable.
even though we are injured or sick, we wld not mind as long as there is one another.
and i am glad, that i did not quit red cross when i was a cadet.
if not these losers, wld not make such a big impact in my life.
and i wld also not have known so many ppl. like the 2 VIs, the snrs, my platoon mates and even jnrs..
looking at jnrs reminds me of myself when i was cadet..
how we endured through the burning hot parade ground during physical training, and how we sweat during the footdrill practices and pass the accreds and get the badges as a squad...
but i have to admit, i regretted that we bonded so late.. because we left oni ard 1 year with another, and everyone will part to go our own ways.
some will go JC, in different JCs, or even overseas. and we cant be like now, when we see each other outside class we wld pretend to dao one another and walk away or say, hey loser!
so i really hope, jnrs dont make the same mistake as us.
because squadmates are just there forever.
and i knw, no matter what happen, they wld always be there for me.
and they are always there when i was in the most depressed period.
cadets asked me abt retaining today..
hahahaha. i just think they are just so funny.
to me, i am no longer sensitive talking abt this issue anymore.
because is already a past. and what for brooding over it.
and if anyone wana ask me anything, just feel free to ask me! hehe!
i was once afraid, when i am in sec 4, where there is no cliquemates, there is no squadmates,
how wld i survive?
but now i knw there is still someone (high!)
and i am looking forward.. for them to return to crescent to visit me!
as i work hard for my Os, i am sure they wld be able to support me!
things is not as worst as it seems now, because i remember, evonne ma' am ever told me, nothing is impossible, because impossible is made up of, i m possible.
and joanne ma'am told me, everyone has their own strengths and i am sure i am good at smthing!
and also bertha ma'am told me, must jiayous next year okay? ( okay!)
plus, cliquemates told me, we are always behind you. so dont be afraid okay?
squadmates said this during my most depressed period and whenever i read it, it wld still sent me to tears...
heyy i know you wouldnt wanna bring this up, but i really wanna say it, and i believe the sekuad wants too. we dont know why you decided to retain, maybe cause you feel that youve got no other choice, or that you really thought about it and feel that it would be better for your o's. if youve really thought of it, why is it that youre still so unhappy? we really want to promote to sec 4 as a
squad, and we cant do it without you. not all is over. your mom can make a request to mrs lee for another chance. and i believe teachers can make testimonials for you. we believe that if you have this second chance, you would definitely do better than finals. we have this confidence that you can do it, and we would defnitely help you to do so. we're a squad, and no one gets left behind. all of us
know about the efforts that youve put in just to get promoted to sec four, and you shldnt just give up now. we know that it maybe better that you have this extra year to brush up on sec 3 stuff, but we really dont want to leave you in leave you in sec 3. although you would still be our squadmate, there would certainly more or less be factors that would affect our bond and stuff. you may be
smiling and all in school, but we're your squadmates, we know that that's all a pretence. you do it cause perhaps you dont want us to feel sad or worried for you, but you doing it this way worries us further. well, it is your choice to whether you wanna retain or attempt for another chance, and we cant do anything about it, although i believe you know what we're hoping for. just remember that
we're your squadmates and we would always be there for you
they made me cry, when i read this, and i also made them cry too... and i felt so sorry. but they said...
you dont have to be sorry or whatsoever. we'll do anything to make sure the squad promotes as one. we know that youve studied alot, and it did pay off. you did improve. just that perhaps youre someone who absorbs a lil slower. youve put in much more effort than many of us. if youve any questions etc can come to us okay! we'll help you and make sure you pass=D
because i have nth to regret anymore, with the support of my squadmates, cliquemates, VIs, and my family.. i got the courage to leave everything behind me..